It’s been awhile… August 23, 2006

a long while. We’ll there has not been much to report since the miscarriage. Granted it was a very early pregnancy, it was a pregnancy none the less. It’s a loss to us. It’s hard to see the good in it that others speak of…you know the part where everyone says, “The good news is that you got pregnant. Now you know you can.” Somehow it seems like a very small consolation prize. So, we have been left with the wonder of if we should keep “playing this game”. Should we keep going this route (Artificial Insemination) or should we stop trying and look into foster care or adoption. The thing that upsets us is that in both those avenues it would be one of us doing the initial adopting or fostering. There just seem to be so many hoops to jump through. Toying with the idea of going back to insemination, do we use the same donor? Do we think about fertility drugs? Do we do something more invasive and expensive like IUI? So many things to think about.The summer has been crazy busy, and it’s all for the best, keeps my mind off of things. But makes it all the harder to start back up on charting cycles and testing for ovulation, and for quiting caffiene.Who knows what will happen in the next few months. Who knows.